R.C & N.T

False Hope is what you've given me all this long

2009-09-24T19:40:00.000-07:00

I didn't say you're in the wrong by treating everybody as friend.
You said you know you like Chun but yet it seems that you have feelings for me?
BULLSHIT!
If you truly like/love a person, there won't be a second person who'll come to your mind.
I started this blog in March because of you, and it'll die because of you too.

This shall be the last post.

2009-09-06T20:31:00.000-07:00

Have been sleeping over at Yanzhi's house. Slacked at his house with Fariq and Acap until 5 in the morning. Winston hot fast game, Left around 5 sticks when they leaving. Powerful. 3 smoking machines.

Currently still at his house, maybe update later.

Byes~!

Time flies..

2009-09-04T18:35:00.000-07:00

Everything's gone now,
nothing more left.
Nothing more, or nothing left to be said.
Lead your life, the way you want it.
Washing my hands off everything.

I"m NOT trustable!

2009-08-28T19:22:00.000-07:00

Come on, I didn't say it's a CRIME.
But did you ever clarify things?
You didn't and you kept leading on.
When you need me,
You find me,
Don't need?
Left me one side.
Think I'm at fault?
Reflect on how you 'handle this 'problem.
I've nothing left for you,
Only hatred.

Now I know who you are...

2009-08-11T04:44:00.000-07:00

Sorry,
Sorry for all the quarrels I've started,
Sorry for all the hurt I've caused upon you,
I'm really trying to change for the better,
Give me time.

2009-08-07T22:38:00.000-07:00

You're free to do what you want,
free to go where you want.
The more I care,
the more you think I'm controlling.
Why likethat?
Cause last time we keep quarrelling over small stuffs?

Maybe you had a phobia now...
I didn't know you're that suffering because of me...
Sorry...

I'm a foolish guy...

2009-08-05T04:43:00.000-07:00

For what I did yesterday in the morning, I got 2 weeks of suspension. Stupid right? Haish. Too late to regret now bahs. What's done cannot be undone, just make sure don't do it again.

Today is the first of the 14days of suspension i'm going to serve. Like holiday sia. Morning woke up, left YanZhi's house and reach SzeKiat's house at around 8am(thanks la dey, never go school cause accompany me). Around 11.30am, left his house then head for the CCK Polyclinic to take MC. Then lied about having diahorrea, somemore the story like cock story likethat. Haha. But waited 1hour plus just to see the doctor. Long, isn't it?

Was done at around 1plus in the afternoon, so bus-ed to West Mall to ate free lunch. Wohoo~! My mother treat mahs. Haha! Then took bus 187 to bangkit and find my brothers in school. Lol. Me and SzeKiat climbed in the school from the back like Prison Break likethat. Go in le, after awhile climbed out. Bodoh sia.

Then, suddenly, a message came. A message I've been waiting for. Alamak, can go send her home. Then aku happy. (: Haha.

A promise to my brothers and You,
I swear to control my temper and not to be like now,
I swear I'll do my best in whatever thing I do,
and I swear to be a better person than now.

Recently, alot of things happened to me and my beloved brothers. Some even threw their temper at whoever they're unhappy with. Please, don't be like me.

29th July 2009, cause past 12am when i'm updating

2009-07-28T09:41:00.000-07:00

28th July

Suay sia, early morning before lesson even starts, kena by Mdm.Heng. Why? Cause wearing singlet. Lol. I like kena fooled by her sia. She ask me changed in to school attire so I changed into PE shirt lor. Then, she not happy again, say change to school uniform. Shit sia. After changing for the second time, she say she don't want to see me in class, ask me go office. Then in office, she say she unwilling to talk to me. Come on la, you think I want waste my time talking to you? Surely not.

Nevermind, unhappy things aside. 1st period, F&N. Powerful la when finish doing the Coursework B practical. Cooked eggs, chicken fillets, fish fillets and tofu, mixed with EXPIRED chilli sauce. Haha. After that period, went for PE even thought Mr.Tan never come. Heck care only. Recess ate nothing, cause too full after eating all that 'stuffs' in the F&N kitchen.

Maybe updating later, currently at Yanzhi's house

Wonderful night!

2009-07-17T20:30:00.000-07:00

Hahaha. Yesterday 'ton' cause celebrating SzeKiat's birthday. Ah Kai came to my house at around 2plus then we left house yesterday at around 4plus in the afternoon then met with Jes and Terence at Greenridge Shopping Centre.

After that walked back to school cause Jes want find Mr. Francis Ho. Walk half-way then turned back to the bus-stop to take bus to Bangkit Lrt there. Stupid sia. Haha. After reaching school awhile, Sebes came and met up with us at the school gate. Jes took his artpiece home then we headed to Teck Whye. By 6plus, everyone reported strength at the playground under Jes block. Quite a big group bahs, around 12 people. Lol. Go Choa Chu Kang Park there eat. Almost $200 in total sia. But no choice, so many people eating.

After eating, bus-ed to Bukit Timah there. Some went home at around 11plus, so left ZiHui, YongSheng, Jiawei, Jes, KaiYuan and me. Played LAN and pool. Haha. Fun la dey, 2 weeks never play pool liao sia so must enjoy abit.

Just reached home today at 10.15am likethat. But not tired lehs. Sian~, no one to talk to.
That's all. Maybe will update again later. (:

BYE!

2009-07-17T00:20:00.000-07:00

Currently not free to update...
Going to celebrate SzeKiat's birthday...
Byes~

Boring boring boring....

2009-07-15T02:52:00.000-07:00

"No Boundaries-Kris Allen"

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait?
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you lost your way
And what if my chances were already gone?
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries!There are no boundaries!
I fought to the limit to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets?
Don't know where the future's headed
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I've risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why!
So here I am still holding on
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you and your dreams
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
Yeah! There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries!
With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries!
There are no boundaries!
There are no boundaries

Wonderful lyrics from No Boundaries, with the voice of Kris Allen. Haha. Boring jer today. Counselling during English lesson for about an hour. The things Madam Persis Tan said today somehow woke me up. there are ups and downs in this world. I failed everyone, including my brothers and myself. All I need is time to get back to my normal self, the 'old' me.

English: Counselling
Mother Tongue: Do nothing so play PSP
Recess: Stayed in class and played PSP again
Physics: Practical, using glass block to do some 'experiment'
Mathematics: Wohoo~! Finally i understand the graph thingy. Haha.
Social Studies: Do worksheet. But then a new teacher came in. Fucking guai lan and lao lan sia. Bloody hell. But nevermind, one day nia. Lol.

Damn tired now, downloading SUDDEN ATTACK to play with Tim and ZiHui, so going to play Football Manager 2009(waiting for football manager 2010) first.

Byebye!
Byebye.

Tuesday, 14th of July 2009

2009-07-13T18:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday took my 'O' level mother tongue oral. Die liao la, most probably won't score well, don't know how to 'talk'. Haha. But now, using computer to blog in the cyber lab. Lol. Supposed to do 'O' level coursework B for F&N but I'm done. Fast, right? Haha. Powerful la dey. Will update again soon. Bye.

I've seen the perception of your 'perfect boyfriend' on your blog. Sometimes, I shown almost everything you listed, but you think I'm controlling. Haish, don't know what to say. Hope your cheeck doesn't hurt anymore.

Today, 09 July 2009

2009-07-09T03:56:00.001-07:00

Haha, long long time never post. Will start posting if I've got the time to.

English: As usual, played some games then boring, go draw stars
Geography: Talking most of the time as I've finished the work given by Mr.Ho
Lifeskills: Miss Ruby again, sian. Go cyber lab do some stuffs regarding to career.
Recess: Went to canteen, ate a little then as 'usual'
F&N(2 periods): Go cyber lab do coursework B. Lol. All the computers suddenly just hanged but didn't any data. Lucky!
Assembly: Fold paper cranes for the unfortunate people. But didn't, playing PSP throughout.

After school, go play basketball at ISH then home.

010509, Labour Day, but i'm alone ):

2009-04-30T20:58:00.000-07:00

Boring boring boring, SO BORING. Nothing to do except to play PS2. Woke up at 9.15am, bathe then use laptop. 2 weeks past, and the COM still not repaired. No choice but to use my 3RD sis laptop. Nothing more lehs. Maybe going to find Yanzhi they all.

I want to let go & forget, but I can't,
You want me to think positive, but I can't,
I think i am the one, but i aren't,

Maybe I hate you now, but I don't,
I thought you're mine, but you're not,
Promises became empty when you left,
Are promises meant to be broken?
Just when I don't like anyone, you make me fall in love with you,

In the end, you let me go

GOOD FRIDAY, 9th April 2009

2009-04-10T05:08:00.000-07:00

GOOD FRIDAY, 9th April. As the day was named 'Good Friday', it was supposed to be good. But to her, maybe it's bad? Haha. Whatever it is, I'm happy. :) Received message from her at around 11.50am just to tell me wat's going on. And the next message included 3 words(not i love you) which makes me that damn happy. Woots~!

Maybe the thnking is all on my own part & i don't know what you're thinking. Hope what i'm thinking turns out to be what i'm thinking. I don't know whether you'll see all this but i'm just trying my luck, and trying my everything to make you come back. Come back please, will you?

060409 The day you really broke my heart

2009-04-06T06:05:00.000-07:00

Why you have to push me away? It's so clearly stated in your blog. Come on, our feelings for each other are MUTUAL, not one-sided. So why can't you stay on? What went wrong again? Really HEARTBROKEN. Spare a thought for me can? You think by leaving you can solve everything? Why leave in the first place? Just because of SOME OTHER PEOPLE'S comments? SInce you made this decision, then why doubt whether it's right or wrong?

Really don't understand why you have to leave. Come back, please? I really love you alot. Hope one day you'll be back.

Saturday,4th April 2009

2009-04-04T00:59:00.000-07:00

Lol. So long never update. Haha! Like boring jer.

Morning woke up at 5plus but then continue to sleep till 6.30am. Had a bath before going to meet friends for soccer match. Met at Choa Chu Kang MRT platform before going off together. Planned to meet at 8am but all arrived only at 8.30am. Lol. After that, took train to Khatib. Although it was only around 6 to 7 stations away, it took around 25mins to reach. Journey to Khatib was fun, jokes and jokes were cracking in the train. When reached, need to walk through the blocks before reaching the field. The field condition really SUCKS! Sands everywhere and the ground were inbalanced. 2 goals down but managed to fight back to 2-2 in the first half. Received DEAR's message saying she's down with fever. :( Went back to the MRT to fetch Ah Kai to the field as he don't know the way.

The second half was played. It ended 8-4(Kai Yuan 1, Acap 2, Ah Kai 1). We lost. But it's our determination was the most impressive. Despite going down, we continue playing, putting in our heart and soul in the game although some players were injured. COME ON，PUNGGOLIANS. There's still a long way to go.

Have lunch with everyone at the coffee shop near the field. Went home after eating.

Sorry my dear, instead of being by your side caring for you, I'm out there, enjoying myself. Yesterday really sucks. Sorry for what happened yesterday. I'm really really remorseful and think what i did/said was really stupid. I know sometimes i've hurted you deeply without knowing it. Really sorry. Hope things would get back to normal soon. And i sincerely hope you can put your everything back into this friendship/relationship once again. Get well soon, dear. :)

Don't know what happened to me, but my heart feel cramped. Sometimes even had difficulty in breathing. Maybe going for check-up soon.

FELT SO INSECURED

2009-03-23T03:06:00.001-07:00

Sometimes, the things you do makes me feel so insecure, insecure of my place. Really really worried. When i ask too much, you don't like it, but if i don't ask, i'm even more worried. But i rather i worry about myself than make you angry. It may seem to be a small matter to you, but for me, it's really disturbing

Hope you're truly mine.

210309

2009-03-20T19:55:00.000-07:00

Who am i really to you? Maybe someone who isn't even the least important? I'm really disappointed. Sometimes i feel you chose your friends over me. This makes me feels i do not even have a place in your heart. You said you love me, but you've hurted me so much. But i can't blame you. I need to get the facts right in my mind. Yeah, you're right. We both need to chill. Think throughly now rather than regret later. But my love for you would never change.

The day i know you till now

2009-03-19T00:37:00.000-07:00

On 050309, you messaged me suddenly. Haha, but maybe something good is going to happen.

Hmm, how should i start? Nevermind, i shall skip all that.

The time i chatted with you were really enjoying for me. There's laughter and jokes. To say the truth, i really don't know when did i ever liked you. I mean i don't know when the feelings come to my heart. It just come suddenly. Although we can't be together now, but i believe we will in the future. Have trust in me and yourself. If you can, why can't i? But recently, negative thinking kept popping up in your mind. Maybe it's because of what i said really hit hard on you? But now, i do not have that thinking anymore. Why can't you think positive now? Today morning, for no reason, i got reprimanded by you. Ok, nevermind, i forget about it. Everytime i see your smile, i seemed to forget everything. You really affected me alot in everything you do. Yeah, i admitted i may be over-protective over you. Remember that day you told me not to push my luck? After i received that, i don't feel like doing my physics paper anymore. 15min is all i spent on the paper and i keep thinking to myself: Just what did i do wrong? Really, sometimes even if i'm not to blame, i still apologised. Why? Why am i doing this? Cause i really treasure and cherish you, my dear. You're my everything. I try to keep my cool even though i'm angry with you sometimes. I chose to keep it to myself. You want a future between the both of us? I'm working on it, trying to change my attitude. Loving someone isn't just saying it. You must prove it! I don't mean that i don't believe you love me, but sometimes, the way you talk to me, i just don't like it. I told you once before, you said you'll change and so far, there's improvement. Maybe i'm still not close to you than your friends. I'm not angry or anything, it's natural. I've only known you for 14 days compared to the years of your friendship.

I really love you, trust me, have trsust ad faith in me, my dear. You're my top priority now. I'll wait for you, no matter how long it's going to take.